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There are no issues at hand
Only uncharted caverns of feeling-
Inside the body
Outside the mind
Where internal dialogue sustains the friction of the mentally estranged

To overthrow the illusion of unity and culture-
Why make words lie?
When they are musical notes, yet danced gestures,
Tongue torn by the visceral straps of restraint

If you fuck your own mouth a thousand times,
Will they let you swallow the salty taste of your own dementia?

Sore with vengeance, it burns your throat going down
It burns your throat going down
Going down
Going down

Through the secret foliage and underbrush,
You murk along, wanting to find the hidden jewel of annihilation

This cannot be real life
Only here
At the ephemeral vessel of a secret forest of freedom do I find true life
And always die

This cannot be real life
Inside real life
Inside the body
Outside the mind
This cannot be real life
Outside real life
This cannot be real life


from Give Me Your Alchemy, released December 12, 2013
Lyrics, Vocals and Backing vocals: Ryan Wildstar
Music Written by: EXP
All Music Performed by: Jacen Touchstone
Composition & Arrangement: Jacen Touchstone and Ryan Wildstar
Recorded and Mixed by: Jacen Touchstone
Mastering: Critical Monkey



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Ryan Wildstar Seattle, Washington

Ryan Wildstar has again joined forces with composer Jacen Touchstone for their second, full length album. Their first release, City of Brittle Stars pairs Wildstar's poignant style of lyrical poetry with Touchstone's lush and intricate atmospheres, creating a haunting theatrical exploration into the uncharted territory of spoken-word music which few artist have traversed with such eloquence. ... more

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